When your daily activities are in concert with your highest priorities, you have a credible claim to inner peace. – Hyrum Smith


Dear Kids

It's funny how exhaustion makes me all weepy and sentimental.  Daddy has been gone for about 4 days, and he won't get back until after bedtime tomorrow.  Our poor helper, who was sick in bed before he left, is finally on the mend today.

But despite my tiredness, despite the endless logistics whirling around my brain, despite my sadness over missing your dad, I want you all to know how much joy you brought me tonight.

Most of the evening was actually pretty crummy.  You did not sit in your chairs at dinner.  You fought over the television.  You got soap in your eyes at bath time, and refused to put on your pajamas.  You made snippy comments to each other resulting in the loss of story time.  But...

God is gracious.  I prayed for patience, and He answered me in a big way.  I stayed in your rooms.  Waaay past bedtime.  We talked and prayed and talked some more.  This exhaustion is totally worth it, kids.  I want to hear your silly songs.  I want to hear your fears about the social scene at school.  I want your snuggles.  I love that you followed me into my room to ask me if you could eat with a special spoon in the morning, to tell me "G'nigh mom," to give me that last hug.  As grueling as it feels, I love this season of life.  And I love you more than the words in this blog could ever express.

Each time when I write love notes to you late at night, my chest tightens a bit.  I feel a desperate need to capture, commemorate, savor a sweet little slice of life.  I suppose that on some level I fear life could never again be this good.

But that's a pretty foolish way to look at life (and one I hope you won't adopt).  Because if I look at previous posts, though your behavior hasn't necessarily improved (just look at paragraph 3 above), my love for you has only grown deeper.  I trust that it will continue to increase as you grow, allowing us to face our struggles together, with God's help.  I love you to pieces dear ones!  Sweetest dreams!

May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you.  1 Thessalonians 3:12

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.  Romans 8:28

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.  1Peter 4:8